She Get It From Her Momma

I always keep a bottle of ammonia in the house even though I rarely, if ever, use it. I also have steel wool and Pine Sol in my cleaning supply cabinet. I wear gloves when I wash dishes and I sometimes speak in cliches that frankly, explain situations perfectly. Every now and then I cook a pot of beans and I always make my cornbread from scratch. When I think about it, I realize that I do all of these things because my mother did them.

As kids, we often spend our time thinking about how ridiculous our parents are and how we will do it all differently as soon as we get out of the house. We won't fold our clothes in that way, we won't put all of those silly restrictions on our children, and we'll never wear a jacket when going out into the cold air freshly showered. We won't do any of those things because we are way smarter and more evolved than our silly parents. Though I thought this way as a child, adulthood and personal responsibility changed everything for me.

As an adult, I began to see things from a different point of view. Life suddenly changed when I had to buy my own groceries and pay for my own health care. I started to budget my money. I shopped according to what I cold afford. I partied regularly, but never before my bills were paid and I made every effort to pay them on time. I discovered that beans were not just delicious, but cheap and that they make a great meal in a financial pinch. I learned that Pine Sol is not only a cleaning agent, but that it makes for a wonderful scent in the house. I have to be honest and say, I still don't know what the hell to do with the ammonia.

In my maturation, I've learned that while I still do some things differently from my mother, she was far more wise than I was able to give her credit for as a child. I often say the things she said, buy the things she bought, and subscribe to the same theories. And, I don't only do them for the sake of being like her. I do them because it turns out that they really are the very best things for me. All the time I spent planning on how to be different is now the time I spend asking her questions about what to do so that I can find more ways to be like her. It turns out that hindsight is not the only thing that is 20/20, wisdom is as well.

Just Stop It

As I mentioned in a previous post, I'm not really big on New Year's resolutions. I see them as nice things to say and wonderful goals to set that will most likely be broken before reaching the end of March. However, I am still a huge advocate of the constant struggle to improve one's thinking, living, and loving. Having said that, I've compiled a list of things to STOP doing instead of the typical list of things to start doing at the onset of a new year. And, hey, why wait until January 1st? Post haste and get crackin' NOW. You'll thank me later. : )

• Stop ending all your sentences with, "Let's Go!" It's annoying, and frankly, anything that mimics Sean Combs is suspect for stupidity.
• Stop wearing leggings as pants. NO.
• Stop making sweeping generalizations about people, places, and things.
• Stop talking about what black folks don't do i.e. read, write, ski, swim, have ill-behaved children. Yes we do. Now get over it.
• Stop using Bossip and Media Takeout as your real news sources. A little CNN, HLN, Huffingtonpost, Daily Beast, or even local news never hurt (sometimes FOX News hurts, but that's a story for another day).
• Stop idolizing pimps and drug dealers as if they are upstanding pillars of society while ignoring the positive efforts of people who dedicate their lives to helping and improving the state of others such as educators, community volunteers, ministers, etc.
• Stop avoiding books that are about things other than pimps, hoes, hustlin', and screwin'. Broaden your scope of knowledge.
• Stop avoiding the use of a DICTIONARY when writing or typing anything meant for someone else to read.
• Stop disparaging those who choose to do and live better. Try jumping on that bandwagon yourself.
• Stop idolizing humans. We all blow it. Admiration Good. Obsession bad.
• Stop embarrassing those around you by behaving as if you have no class. If, in fact, you do not have any, shut your mouth and go sit down until it's over.
• Stop making excuses to avoid exercising. The is the only body you will have.
• Stop living your life according to the actions and opinions of celebrities. You don't even begin to fit in that category so don't even try to pretend.
• Stop telling yourself and others what can't be accomplished. Instead, focus on what CAN.
• STOP adding extra letters at the end of words. For example, nobody has EVER been "light-skinnedDED". EVER.

I firmly believe that the list contains goals to which we can all aspire if we are guilty of any of the infractions. I already know that this list will grow over the course of the next twelve months because we all have habits we need to quit. Let's try to start off the new year by simply stopping.

Out Of The Woods

Before I get started on my latest rant, I'd like to take a few moments to see if I can manage to care about the Tiger Woods situation......nope, still nothin'. This leads to the source of today's irritation; America's seeming fascination with the demise and humiliation of anyone who maintains a celebrity status.

Now, before anyone even has time to wonder or question me, I do not condone marital infidelity in any way. It is wrong and it is disrespectful to one's self, spouse, children, and those who are supportive loved ones. Having said that, I must also state how disgusting I find it to participate in, perpetuate, and pontificate endlessly on the Tiger Woods situation and any other celebrity situation to the point of obsession.

I'll be fair and say that I can see how one might find his drama interesting. However, once I found out that he was not greatly injured from his car accident, I no longer cared to know more. Unlike many, I've chosen to ignore the coverage. I opt to get my news from sources that realize how irrelevant Tiger's situation is to the world in general. I see headlines online and choose not to read them. I also cut people off when they try to strike up conversations with me about this man and his wayward body parts. And, it isn't all done because I feel high and mighty and possess the desire to rise above the fray. It's just because I don't care and can find little reason for anyone else to care. I don't see how it impacts my life or the lives of those around me. I don't see how it does anyone any good to know all of his personal life details, and frankly, I stay busy enough trying to make a dollar out of fifteen cents, watching political coverage to find out how my vote is and isn't working for me, praying for deployed soldiers and their families, and trying to figure out how to return to my "player weight" so that I have little to no time to worry about which tart of the month has been getting the golden golf club on the side.

In my efforts to pay no mind to the foolishness, I have found that people often back pedal and defend their own interest when I say I have none. I think people feel a little embarrassed that they care and have spent time reading articles and having discussions instead of tending to their own lives. I think many of us realize there is something off about our behaviors but we often choose to bury it in our minds while continuing to do the wrong thing. We know it's shameful, but can't seem to help ourselves.

I think the main reason we enjoy watching a good demise is because it makes us feel better about our own pathetic lives. Those who cheat can look at the scenario and talk about how they would never be caught in that situation because they are way to smart to be detected. They come up with alternate courses of action Tiger could have taken in order to avoid his drama because, of course, all of them are smarter than he is. Wives and girlfriends take the time to talk about how they would NEVER be in such a situation and how they are all wise enough to know when a man is cheating on them. They say things like, "How could she NOT have known? She's not very smart." They also like to talk about how much money it would cost for him to pay for his iniquities. In all of this conversation, few talk about the humiliation and disrespect for his wife and children.

Each time one of us reads a story online, engages in lengthy debates, repeats a stupid joke, or worse, makes a purchase of a ridiculous gossip rag so that we can find out more of this man's personal business, we are contributing to the embarrassment and disrespect of his family. And, if few of us seem to care about his wife, the least we could all do is have some consideration for his children. The most we could do is have some consideration for ourselves and the junk we opt to let in our brains.

While I'm not some elitist who feels as though only "heavy" subject matter is worth discussing, I do have to say that it perplexes and disturbs me that we spend so much time rejoicing when someone else blows it. Who of us hasn't screwed something up in some kind of way? I, for one, don't need to look at Tiger Woods in order to feel better about my own life. I have committed enough of my own transgressions and have experienced redemption enough times to know that my life is a work in progress and that my time should be spent enjoying it and honing it into a thing of great worth. Once you realize you have a life of your own, it's really easy to stop focusing on the lives of others. Let's all find something else to do.

Ode To Big Bloomers

Popular culture and alleged sex appeal say I should be ashamed, but let me boldly proclaim that I LOVE BIG PANTIES! Yes, I know that they aren't very sexy and they leave everything to the imagination with their comfy stretchable elastic waistbands, "pretty" colors like puke green and pumice stone gray, and their miles and miles of soft cottony goodness. While they may not be the most aesthetically pleasing garments, my bottom finds them simply irresistible.

When asked the question about his main turnoff, a friend of mine exclaimed, "White cotton panties!" I smiled to myself while reading his statement and shook my head at his hypocrisy. Men have the pleasure of walking around in comfy boxer briefs (the big bloomer's little brother), boxer shorts that allow maximum freedom, and briefs, which, while fitted, afford the wearer the pleasure of enjoying a somewhat relaxing fit. Women, on the other hand, get to choose between styles like french cut, which, for some of us, fails to provide enough coverage for any excess belly fat, bikini, which is cute but can sometimes roll under the spare tire, and the dreaded thong that can ride up and cause a girl to be concerned about her future as a mother. Men get underwear that covers and keeps them comfortable. Their comfort is kept in mind when their underwear is designed. On the other hand, women's underwear are made with men's desires in mind and I can't figure out for the life of me why being sexy has to be uncomfortable and at times, downright painful.

When I get out of the shower, lotion up, and proceed to get dressed, my first reflex is to grab the big drawers. I want the soft caress of cotton to envelope my skin. I love how the waistband rests ever so gently just beneath my bust line. And more than these things, I love how they manage to keep the yeast monster away. Simply put, big bloomers are a godsend. They aren't made to titillate or improve the sex life ten fold, but they are made to make mama happy. And, if mamas happy, EVERYBODYS happy, including daddy.

While I know it is an impossible task to sell men on the idea of big cotton panties being the new thong, I will continue to sell it to women who, in the solace of their own homes, would love to enjoy the soft and soothing feel of big bloomers on their behinds. It's the good stuff.

Hell On Wheels

I miss riding the light rail. On my way to work this morning, it wasn't long before I felt the usual tension and frustration of my morning commute. Everyone seemed to be trying to get somewhere at the same time. Cars were backed up for a quarter of a mile at a main light, and the usual slow-driving, looky-loos were out and about impeding the progress of those of us who needed to get to work and school. While this experience is nothing new, it still annoys me and causes me to arrive to work angry before any co-workers have the opportunity to get on my nerves first. I miss the days of working downtown and being able to take advantage of the park and ride. Sure, it did involve a few minutes of standing in the cold waiting for the train to arrive, but the train was always on time, I always had a seat, the heat always worked, and I arrived to work stress free.

Now, I arrive angry, at times, disheveled, and 15 miles worth of gas lighter in the wallet. Undoubtedly I will have cussed out loud or in my head three or four times, my brakes will have been tested greatly, and I will have used my horn at least once. I can't possibly see how these are excellent conditions in which to transition from the warmth of my apartment to the unpleasantness of the eight hours I must spend at work each day. Though the drive can be trying at best, there are some good parts to it.

Most mornings I listen to NPR on my way to work. It gives me a chance to hear news I may not get from other sources, the voices of the reporters are often soothing, and I feel enlightened and prepared to wow people at any hypothetical cocktail party I may attend. Occasionally, I hear a story that angers me changing my focus from traffic anger to social anger and action. And, there are even times I hear something that moves me to tears, softening the blow of the morning hustle.

There are also times my focus moves away from the radio and I spend time ranting in my head about how stupid the person is who thought it a good idea to put traffic lights at freeway entrances. I've yet to figure out how it is smart to have cars backed up onto the main road while waiting at a light to get onto a FREEWAY. I thought the purpose of getting on the freeway in the first place was to get to one's destination quicker while avoiding the inconvenience of traffic lights. I stand corrected. I then think about how counterproductive carpool lanes seem. Sure, they reward those who get to ride to work or school with a bunch of other people stuffed into the car with them, but more than that, carpool lanes seem to punish those of us who don't know two or three other people who live on the same street as us and need a ride to the exact same place. Some of us have standing commitments before or after work and don't have the luxury of schlepping about town with a carload full of folks. And because of this deficiency, the rest of us get to sit in three or four lanes of bumper to bumper whilst six cars full of dorks get to work on time. Perhaps the grump in me fails to see the logic here.

Most mornings, by the time I have honked, cussed, rewritten legislation with my active imagination, cried from a touching story, swerved, tested my brakes, and shaken my fists in the air at the insanity of it all, I arrive at work with teeth gritted and an incredibly unfriendly scowl on my face. Like recess and tater tot Tuesdays in elementary school, I miss the light rail. I miss its ugly blue seats covered in some synthetic material that scared me. I miss the mentally incapacitated who would speak to themselves aloud while funking up the entire train car. I miss the people who fancied themselves street performers even though their impromptu songs could cause bleeding of the ear. I miss the friends with whom I'd ride each day while exchanging stories about the lunacy that took place during the work day. I miss the thirty minutes of solace I experienced on the way to work and on the way home. Now, it's just me, NPR, and the driving idiots. Damn.